Need a Reset?
This is my year of choosing new areas to be uncomfortable and embrace the discomfort hoping to exchange this for growth and movement. I didn't know what this would look like so have kept it quite general and abstract in my head and am trying to let things unfold as they may knowing that my natural flow will kick in. I also trust that even if I could imagine the most amazing vision for what I want, what is best for me is always better so I'm trying to keep a blank canvas and be open.
I recently took on some new sales training to continue my growth and education knowing it would be helpful not only in my work but also in my every day dealing with family and friends. I even went to the next step of looking at a new sales role that was in a completely new area for me looking at stretching. I'll be honest. It was uncomfortable and I had to do some role plays with others to test my skills and see how I performed under pressure. It was scary. Then I went for it and had an interview and bombed. Yep, I bombed. The fit wasn't right and I was deflated. Then I was proud of myself for going out on that thin branch to see if it would hold. As the branch cracked, I learned new things about myself such as, I don't like total structure and need some real variety in my day. I'm a round peg and I don't want to fit in a round hole. That would be boring and also stressful. So I hit the reset button.
How do you reset? Sometimes I dive into manual work that doesn't require too much thought and I produce and repeat. Produce and repeat. After a full day, I'm exhausted and exhilarated. My muscles are screaming because they aren't used to this, yet I'm also content that I've done a day of real physical work and feel great about myself. After, I have a total reset. Then watch out as I'm firing on all cylinders and have new ideas and concepts that came to me doing this manual work because my brain was free and could just meander. Yoga does the same thing for me and I get that reset even faster but on a smaller scale to ensure I stay right where I'm meant to be.
Life is short. There's so much going on and it's not always easy. Terrible things happen all around, but this is what being human is all about. Those magical sunrises you wake up for make you feel small in a huge extraordinary world that you're a part of. And tomorrow that's one thing you can count on, the sun will always rise.
I'm grateful that I bombed and am out the other side. Yet, I'm also ironically looking forward to the next uncomfortable twist that I never saw coming. Where am I going today?